Fun Facts for Babies

Congratulations!
Your baby's birth date was
Monday, November 09, 2009
Your conception date was most likely 2/16/2009
And your baby is 44 days old!

See what's happening in Week 7 of your baby's life!

Fun Facts For Birthday 11/09/2009
Your baby's half birthday is May 10

Your baby's birthstone is Yellow Topaz (Fidelity)
Your baby's Astrological Sign is Scorpio
Your baby's Flower is Chrysanthemum or Chrysanthemum (Dark Blue, Red and Yellow)
Your baby was born in the Chinese Year of The Brown Earth Cow

Your baby will start kindergarten in 2014,

be old enough to drive a car in 2025,

finish high school in 2027,

and will graduate from college with the class of 2031, give or take a year.

Can you imagine?

This time last year you weren't even pregnant yet!

4 1/2 weeks

Dear Landyn,

This month has gone so fast. The first week, your father was able to stay home with us and help get us into a routine. The second week, we had some bonding time together. We'd stare at each other for hours and I rarely put you down.

The third week was Thanksgiving. Aspen came to visit for the week and we had many visitors and places to be. You were an angel throughout. You got many compliments of your coloring (you have your father's olive skin) and they all say you've gotten your own facial features and are very distinctive. You seem to have your Dad's chin, my lips and nose, and your dad's face shape. We are still unsure of your eyes and are waiting anxiously to see what color they take on (they have blue, grey, green and hazel at the moment). When you smile, which is surely gas bubbles, your eyes turn up in crescent shapes and you are completely adorable.

This fourth week, you have found your voice more. You have been getting cranky at times when you need to go take a nap and I am slowly figuring out that I need to be the mom and *make* you go to bed and not just let you stay awake because you are fighting it. So, we have rocked, sang (many many Christmas songs), and allowed you to fuss in your crib until you finally realize that it is time for bed.

I have taken MANY pictures and am one of those doting mothers who is constantly jumping up to check your breathing, make sure your pacifier is either in or pulled away from your face (You spit it out more than keep it in your mouth), and that you are not spitting up and laying in a cold puddle of it.

Feeding time is absolutely hilarious. You get so impatient, your little right arm just waves back and forth in quick jerks and your little mouth smacks and opens/closes as you stare at me. I kiss your cheek and you pull your lips toward me, which indicates you are definitely ready! At the beginning, you were 3 ounces, then 3 1/2 for a week, and now the past week and half we have gone to 4 ounces. You seem to want more, but when we do, you spit it up all over me or Daddy. So, we will stick to 4 ounces a bit longer.

We usually feed you around 7pm, bed at 9pm, eat again at midnight, another time at 5am, then 9am, then about 1pm, 4p, etc. I am getting some bad migraines from staying up late (I have to pump for an extra 20 mins or so after you are fed and back into bed), but you make it all worhtwhile with just a smile or look.

Daddy figured out how to play with you before I did. He began tickling your sides and stomach and you will grunt and wiggle. So, I started copying that and smooching your neck and raspberries on your tummy, tickling sides and underarms. You wiggle quite a lot and make great cooing sounds. You also adore your playmat on the floor. You absolutely love the mirror on it and stare at it for quite a while. The only problem is that the floor gets chilly and I always worry about you getting too cold - I will grab you up and snuggle you a lot if I feel the breeze through the door is coming in too much. I have figured a way to get a room heater and pillows against the door to try and remedy that problem.

I only have one more month before I go back to work full time. I wish I had a few months more. I want to be with you 24 hours and see all the changes you go through - uh oh, helicopter parent alert! - but I know and understand that one of these days, you are going to want to do something on your own and I'll have to be content with evenings and weekends while you live your life. That is, until your a teenager.

We love you very much and Daddy and I are very happy these days. These holidays have been extra special because you arrived.

More pictures

Many pictures

One day past due date

To Do List Today:

• Shower
• Get some money on my laundry card
• wash up some laundry
• Go through music to get it ready for the hospital
• Play LOTS of Dragon Age: Origins /drool
• Shop tonight when D gets home

0 days`

OK, so I am down to my 0 Hour. Nothing seems to have changed. He still feels high and hanging onto my ribcage. TV repair guy is here working on the TV and I teased him about it.

Once the Baby Timer goes past 0, it will start going back through 1, 2, 3 and then I can track how LATE baby is.

But, nothing feels different guys, sorry!

Games and Appointments

Been having a rough time at night lately. My heartburn/acid reflux really kicked in and I wake to a burning in my throat constantly. Two nights ago, I'd actually run to the bathroom, hoping I'd expel the problem, but alas no real throwing up. I'm not sick, it's more or less the food I am eating and re-learning yet again about what I can and cannot eat. It's harder now, because I am always starving!

At 10am this morning, I went with a friend to Gamestop and got DragonAge:Origins. Wonderful game! Only problem is, I was home for some of the day and got maybe 3 hours into play. D came home and was begging to play, so I let him begin his character, and of course, he has already passed mine! GRRRRR. Hence the blogging, I left the livingroom when I saw he was about to pass me up, I would rather see and play it myself :)

At 1pm today, D and I went to the clinic for my WEEK 40 checkup. Everything is fine. I am still dilated at a 1, my blood pressure went even further down and I got my H1N1 shot. That means baby will be protected as much as me. I feel good about that. D wanted his too, but there wasn't enough at the clinic yet and we have to just keep checking back for him.

I do know that Landyn has got his foot lodged into my right ribcage and is NOT letting go until he is darn well ready. So, I guess more relaxation and nesting is in my future. Unless there is a sudden change - which I haven't felt yet.

A list of suggestions

Since I know quite a few people now pregnant for the first time, I figured I'd get this list down.

• Palmer's Cocoa Butter for Stretch Marks - Use this once at night and morning. Start right away.
• Full belly panel with stretchy fabric for jeans and pants were awesome! No pain. TRY the banded types, but I felt too much pressure under my belly when I sat and the baby hated it just as much as me.
• What to Expect When You're Expecting - This was the best book ever - answered a lot of my questions about baby and myself.
• Baby Bargains - This was a great book to help me figure out what I should and shouldn't be buying for baby, nursery, myself, etc. MUCH needed book before you go all crazy buying everything cute and unneeded. I think I learned a lot about safety through this venue, also.
• Hospital Birth Class was immensely helpful. I felt much better afterwards and the lady who did the class was wonderful.
• Start saving up diaper coupons now!
• Look for great sales/clearances for furniture at Walmart, etc. We got a great changing table for $45! Originally over $150
• Watch clothes on clearance in the stores and in the second hand shops - there are always some great finds! Just make sure you wash them. Same with toys.
• Do your nursery before you get into weeks 30+. I liked that D and I started very early and I was able to help with a lot of the putting together and making the nursery the way I wanted.
• Start a file or binder with hospital items. You're going to get stuff you will want available for when you go into labor at the hospital.
• I did buy a Bola Pregnancy Chime - I couldn't help it. I liked the idea and it is fun to wear. I bought the heart.
• I sustained myself on canned peaches for about 4 months - of course a few crackers thrown in and other fruits, but that was about it. Just follow what your body tells you and don't push yourself unless your doctor says to. Otherwise, I was fine and never threw up, was just nauseous all day and night long.

Week 39

Just got back from my week 39 Doctors Appointment. I lost 2 lbs (more than likely this was the water weight that I had gained 4lbs earlier last week) and my blood pressure went down slightly. So, good news on that end. The resting is working. Doctor also said the pain band that I feel across my midsectiona nd around my back is probably a nerve that's being stretched when I sit down, try to get up, etc. Not to worry unless the pain is centralized in a certain spot. D came with me, so that was nice to have his support, just in case there were any problems. But, she said he measures average, the heartbeat was strong and I'm still dilated at a small 1. So, I have another appointment next week.

Been working on the baby album - enjoying the creative aspect of it. I'll post some pictures of it later when I have a chance.

Trick or Treat in the residence halls is tomorrow! =)

It's going to be a CrAzY RiDe

I have been wanting to get some pictures of D and I when I had a belly, and here they are. Took them today. Remember, I only have a week and a half left until I am due.

BTW, today has been hard. Baby hasn't moved much, not like he used to, but he does move. And my stomach feels extra tight and crampy when I move at ALL. Also, the back pain is making it uncomfortable, no matter what I do.

But he is moving and I feel OK otherwise, just makes me wonder what is going on in there.

My last appointment had my blood pressure up there again. So, I am now officially on my second day of Maternity Leave. I am to relax and nest. Although, I am still thinking about work (it will be hard not to when I live where I work), but I will do my best to let them hash out anything I missed.

I also stopped by Target today and saw the cute sweater I've wanted to get for my baby boy siunce I saw it on the rack. It was on clearance and so I grabbed it :-)

And now that I take a good look at these pictures, holy cow my face IS poofy, just like my feet and hands. /sigh Ah well...

Pride and Prejudice and Zombies

Just picked this book up at the local bookstore. (Pic shamelessly grabbed off Amazon, check out the link!)

I will start reading it after I finish Charlaine Harris' "Ice Cold Grave" book.

I couldn't help picking this up - I kept hearing people discuss this book and laughing. So, I want to give it a try.

Week 36 + 6 days

Well, tomorrow marks my 37th week. I still don't *feel* big, but my body is definitely telling me to slow down. Having a hard time sittin for more than an hour, walking around (I am carrying him low and it feels like the whole 7ish pouds are on the bottom belly dragging me down), or even bending. I NEED to learn to not bend down to pick things up. I am doing my best to 'squat' to pick up things, but you forget! I have these low crampy feelings, or twinges and my back is usually killing me now and I just feel cumbersome.

I broke down two weeks ago and bout size 11 tennis shoes, because my size 9s were just TOO tight. So sad. I hear they will go back to normal from some and others tell me that it won't. I'd hate to have to buy all new shoes!

None of my winter jackets will fit. This wouldn't be a problem if the weather was a bit nicer, but it's been in the 30s and 40s during the day and 20s at night. So, I layer - a lot. Lots of snow for the weekend, but it was melted today. I wonder if it'll keep this way or go back to fall.

Daryk seems to be doing well. I think I may be stressing more than him these days. I want to be able to leave work without worrying about my student staff, but that may be impossible. I am going to miss the work - I know it. But, I am looking forward to time off to nest and rest, and then to bond.

I think we've hit that wall of not buying anymore baby things. We did a great job on the nursery and have done what we can, but I have heard from others that hats are being made, blankets, and I am sure diapers when we have the little guy. So, we are slowing way down. I like to be over prepared, but feel good right now. Love to sit in the nursery and look around, look at the little onesies, touch the little sweaters I found at garage sales during the summer, and just relax in the rocker I got from family and read the baby sign-language book from Aspen. I am hoping that I have the gumption to keep that goal - to teach myself, D and the baby to communicate in that manner.

Otherwise, D and I had our 2nd year anniversary last Tuesday. He got me roses and a beautiful card. I got him a steak and a card. We ate in and just enjoyed each others company.

My mom has been in contact with us more than usual, and us with the family - that makes me happy. I go through these long stretches of being so involved in my own life, that I lose track of them. I want more, but how to add that into busy schedules is almost foreign to me. Besides the fact that even now I want to go to bed at 9pm every night and the other funny thing is I HATE clothes these days. Anything on my tummy makes me miserable, anything UNDER the tummy makes me miserable. I just want to run aorund in soft tshirt and baggy shorts that hang off me so I dont have ANY pressure anywhere. But, ah well.

Baby Belly Picture as Promised

A lowdown of 'lately's

Well,

Pregnancy is an interesting adventure. Right now he is awake and moving about. Mostly feeling the movement, not full on jabs like I used to about 2 months ago. Now I swear I feel elbows and feet and little hands every hour. He does already dictate how I sleep - if I go to the bathroom (like about 3-4 times a night), and go back to bed, he starts poking me if I am even slightly leaning near the stomach. I think he did push my lower right rib, because that is very sore right now.

D has been getting a lot of fun out of watching my stomach bump up and down, feeling the movement and he rubs my tummy since it is obviously NOT me anymore, but baby. I did buy a Bola Pregnancy chime necklace, where it chimes gently when I walk. It doesn't chime as much as I'd thought, but then that might be a good thing - not annoying.

Nursery is close to done. I feel that later when I am in the need to nest, I'll have *something* to do - organize clothes sizes and put up toys and such.

I now have doctor appointments every other week. So far no new ultrasounds, but that's ok. I was told that I have only gained 4 pounds and normally women have gained about 20 by now. So, I lost some weight - since the doctor says the baby is quite healthy - he just eats everything and leaves me nothing. Although, I am always starving now. Wonder if that will change.

The residence halls are open again and school is in full swing. So far my buildings and staff have been awesome and I have been having a great semester. Can't wait for fall - already looking at Halloween stuff! Love it. D is having a good time at work too, seems like life is good. Happy. =)

We did make a beanbag - it's huge!

New Pictures

So far, I feel great.

We did find out last Wednesday that we are having a baby boy! I've called him a 'he' ever since he started kicking about a month ago. Now, I would swear he is rolling and kicking more than ever - making room for himself. The doctor says he is 1lb and 2 ozs, that I have been losing a little weight, but he's been gaining it. I eat! All the time, so must be OK.

He tends to kick most when I have a pair of jeans on and am sitting at a 90degree angle. He found my bladder the other day and just slammed into it, and I almost had to pee right then and there!

Our baby shower in July was wonderful. Not as many people came as I thought, but we had a good time. I'll get a picture of the updated nursery as soon as it looks decent enough - it is full at the moment and needs to be organized and 'prettified' (like Daryk says I have been doing). I say it's nesting. =)

I am still not too excited about eating any kinds of meat. Unless they are a part of a stew, or a pasta. The thought of a large piece of chicken sitting on my plate makes me sick - but I have started to eat pork chops with loads of potatoes and corn on the same fork.

Daryk is doing wonderful. He made me happy the way he would grab any of the baby items that needed to be put together and filled with batteries. Everything is set up that needs to be and he knows exactly what to do with it. We both get crabby at the same time, sit and relax for a minute and then get right back to playing footsie and snuggling. Seems we are almost on the same schedule of moods. hehe

Aspen is here visiting for a month and I have taken a few days off of work here and there. She and Jeremy have been over a lot and been playing games with us and going to movies (Harry Potter tonight!) and plays (Sherlock Holmes).

Nursery

Well,

We've been going over the lok of he nursery and seem to have a consensus of coloring.

This is from Walmart.com and on our registry there:

Seems to be browns, greens, yellows, and accent colors thrown in. We made the theme of the old time fairy tale/fantasy.. and we're going to try and do the tree and any fantasy elements as accents.

EEEEE HEEE HEEE

15 Weeks, 5 Days

Well, here it is! Only one baby and was a squirmer. I actually watched it jump and wave!!

We don't know if it is Male or female and won't know for another 6 weeks or more. Ah well.

In the first picture, the top part is the head. It's little arms are pressed against it's ears and you can JUST barely see a little face - the two eyes, the nose, mouth, etc.

This second picture is more a profie I think.

Deals and Planning

Well,

I was good tummy-wise for a while, just being careful not to eat too much.

This morning, I got up for my 7am meeting and as soon as i picked up my jacket to put it on, i had to drop it all and go running to the bathroom. /sigh I ended up just going back to bed, wretched and moaning. Got better at about 8:30am and went to work with a baggie of crackers.

http://www.walmart.com/catalog/product.do?product_id=2310468
A couple days ago, D and I went to Walmart to price shop. We scoured the Baby section and after about half an hour, we were about to leave when i noticed a boxed dresses on clearance. It had a sticker of $90. It looked like an awesome deal, so we loaded it into the cart. When we got to the checkout, to our surprise, it came up to $45!!! We put it together and it is gorgeous. Yaay for thrifty and lucky shopping :-)

Also, mom got me a book for my birthday - What to expect when you're expecting. Great book! I also bought the BABY Bargains book - awesome and informative. ALL parents need that book, i swear!

Sleep and food!

The last couple days have been wonderful in the eating category. I am a little nauseous off and on, but I am able to eat a full meal. I went out and bought fruits, fresh veggies, and other good for me and baby foods. Very nummy so far.

And yesterday, I had my 7am meeting and got up earrrly. But by 3:30pm, I was yawning in my meeting with an RA, apologizing if I was slowly sinking. As soon as we went our separate ways, I told my desk worker that I was "busy" napping and went straight home and fell into one of those deep breathing, warm, muscles relaxed naps until 5pm! It was wondrous. D was working until 5pm anyway and I had a heads up that he wouldn't wake me til then. Loved it! No dreams. just slllleeeeeeep. I then went to bed at around 9pm. hehe I guess I was ready to make up for some sleep lost.

This morning I felt so awake at 7am, I made D and I eggs and toast. Just now he sent me a note through our messenger "thank you for an eggcelent breakfast!! ". So cute and nerdy :-)

Tonight, one of my assistants are making donuts in their apartment. He's invited everyone. I am so craving a donut now, it is driving me up the wall =) Tonight at 7pm, we're going to a staff inservice to work through a session for help with the death of our resident. I am hoping this will be beneficial for everyone and help those that need it.

One of my staff are selling these Scentsy wickless candles. So far, I have loved the smell of a few of them and may get one for the apt. As most know, the residence halls don't allow open flames.

Bad night for sleep and long day

Sleeping last night was an ordeal. I didn't eat much yesterday, but I was feeling good and I used the steamvac on some old teddy bears that D and I brought out from storage. This killed my wrist and arms. So, last night, i could NOT sleep on my right, my back hurt and I didn't want to sleep on my back. Sleeping on my left was just plain umcomfortable. Woke up every hour. By 630am, I gave up and just got ready for work.

Had a meeting at Res Life at 8:15 and made some good decisions for support for staff and residents. So glad to have gotten some of this figured out.

Then, D was waiting in the car for me and so we drove to the clinic for him and I waited a few hours for him. I found some free books to download online and so downloaded 8 of them and began reading as I waited.

He did great and I took him home and ran to Res Life and then Oak for yet another set of paperwork for a HD selection process. Then, I went home, checked on D, and then went to a HC meeting.

We went to the grocery store and I stocked up on fruits, vegies, crackers and chicken. Seems I want fresh veggies BAD.

To stencil or not to stencil

I am wondering if I should stencil around the room or not.

However, I do want this Tree above the crib. I love it. I would add the more warm colors in the leaves, the blue/greens, some darker purples, etc.

My baby Mobile is another fun project for me. Since I am going medieval/old world fairy tale, I'd like a specific type of baby mobile.

What I'd like to find is an used mobile, one with music. Then, I may just snip off the existing mobile figures and put on my own. I am contemplating this set of medieval characters, but I'd like something even more whimsical. Dragons (cute of course), fairies, etc as well. Also need to make sure it is secure and safe for baby of course. These finger puppets are cute as well. Or the castle set... another set...

And, omg. Hats with ears... Ya gotta love it: Bunny, kitty, and more kitty! And since it will be a gamer baby, a N00Bl3t baby jumper.

I also decided to choose a curtain from Target. I was thinking of making them, but I have loved the Target curtains I've bought in the past and would like to have them again. This is the type of style and dark coloring I am looking at. The embroidery is beautiful and free-flowing.

Last night and this morning

I turned into miss weepy last night. I haven't cried much in the past year or so and I think I will blame the hormones. I am sure I am going through or passing through a phase in where you feel alone - like it's all happening to YOU and no one else knows what feelings are going through you.

Well, D had to sit and listen to all my worries, my feelings and finally I just told him that I would just have to be more outspoken with him and not try to hide any feelings - because I tried yesterday, and only one day made a HUGE burst of feelings pile up and fester.

Now I know. He gets to hear about it all. He did say that my excitement and talking about the baby makes it that much more exciting and less worrisome for him. (OMG, he opened up!)

This morning I ate a sugary cereal. I couldn't help it. But, I think I learned my lesson that I should eat breads to keep me from feeling nautious. I brought some Ritz with me to work :-)

Ah, and here are the colors we are pulling from - mostly - in this image you can see the different autumny colors. The top left vines have that purple color - not sure what to call that. But that may end up being the main accent color. The walls int he room are already that light buttery yellow color and we'll stick to that. The blues, greens and browns will be the supporting colors. We plan on garage sale hopping, going to auctions, etc. to find furniture. I will be borrowing my moms sewing machine to reupholster or make my own baby bedding, etc. I am excited that Sharon would like to make a quilt! If this picture helps any, that is what we are looking for. I can also go find the fabric for the quilt and try to match it with any curtain fabric (i plan on making my own).

This picture also has that purple/mauvy color.

NOT my sonogram - but has a story behind it

Ok, so about a week ago, the secretary at my work (she is younger than me and is engaged to another old friend of mine), well she had a dream. In it, I was pregnant and I was showing off the sonogram. In the sonogram, my baby was holding a gaming controller.

So, when I told the news to the staff at central, I made this picture and had on it: "(she) is Psychic!" I also told her to try dreaming about me being rich!

Today, I have had some serious back aches. Not sure if I am not sleeping right or what. I am not too tired. Just hungry all the time, but not wanting to eat - because i don't know WHAT I want most of the time. I think D is still in shock. I decided to stay quiet today and not say anything "baby". But, my back hurt and when I complained he grinned and hugged me, saying "preggers!". So, I didn't have to cry. heheh

Mom says the baby is working on its heart.

A copy and past from Child Development Info Website

Heart tube forms and begins to pulsate and force blood to circulate through blood vessels in embryonic disc. Nervous system begins to arise, first in form of neural groove. Development of intestinal tract, lungs, liver and kidneys begins. By end of one month, the embryo is about one-fourth inch long, curled into a crescent, with small nubbins on sides of body indicating incipient arms and legs.

"NUBBINS"!!!! Don't you LOVE that word? =D

Decorating the Nursery with Fairy Tales

I - as usual - want to decorate. So, I was looking at items and just couldn't figure out what to do. Until I looked down at my desk at the Once Upon a Time Cardstock Stack. D agreed, we will pull inspiration from there :-)

I plan on using these as decorative aspects and for pulling colors.

This kid WILL be a nerd - just like me.

The last week in a nutshell

This last week started out with a lot of grief. A student in my building passed away and the tragic event left many waves of remorse and confusion. This event will forever be in a lot of our minds for the rest of our lives.

This last weekend, I told D that something was different. I hadn't started my monthly like normal and I was running out of 'sugar pills'. This meant that I'd be starting a fresh pack without having the monthly (for those that just are NOT following my subtlety).

I also felt too bloated, VERY nautious, all day long, and sore (cough cough, upper region, cough). Let's just say wearing a bra actually hurt a bit (weird!).

So, Sunday night, I walked right into Daryk (or under him, since I am so much shorter) and said that we should pick up a 'test'. I think we both felt like this was something so large to even think about, that we barely talked about it. Thought about it, yes, discussed, no. Not the possibility. Good grief, a baby would change EVERYthing.

So, we went to Walgreens and while waiting for some other perscription to fill, we looked into EVERY aisle but that one. When our name was called to get the meds, we then quickly walked over and I felt totally overwhelmed. Yes, I wanted a baby, yes, I was excited, but i was scared silly!

I picked up one of the home tests and we tucked it into a bag after paying and went home. It took me about 20 mins at home before I was ready and so i completed the test and noticed that as soon as the test started, a second (VERY light) pink line showed. I blinked a lot and had to show D. We then read the directions and it said that was a positive, but we both wanted to say, "but there is a light line, not a full-on line, but a light pink line that doesn't even look whole, like it has spots missing". Maybe it was saying I wasn't fully pregnant. HAH hehe

So, inconclusive in our minds, but not on the test, we went to bed that night, worried.

The next morning, i called D at work and told himt hat I was going to go to the clinic.

I made sure the appts were clear and I drove in myself. It snowed lightly and wasn't very cold. I was shaking and scared. I went right into the clinic, got a lab card and dropped it off at the lab desk and then sat and waited. An old friend from my nortech days sat across from me and she looked awful and we talked about how she felt very dizzy and tired.

My name was called, "Eileen Lenart" of course, and was given a plastic cup. She had to tell me twice that the directions were on the wall in the restroom. Problem was, I had to wait a good 8 minutes until one was free. I then went in and ++tried++ to follow the directions. I would swear I peed on every surface in that bathroom except into the cup! Gross, yes, embarassing, yes, funny - hell yes! I was such a nervous wreck, that I couldn't pee in that cup more than to the 20 line and they wanted at least 50. I just couldn't do it. Even the sticker on the outside was wet. I gave up, cleaned up and put the cup in the metal wall lazy susan and sheepishly got out of there. I probably took a good 10-15 mins. /sigh

They said it would take an hour.

I also talked to a nurse about the pill i was on and i came away from that with the conclusion that i had a stubborn egg and that was that. heh

This was Monday. The parent's of my deceased student came this day. I got the call from my nurse about half an hour before the parents came. I was suddenly ecstatic and exremely giddy. I kept thinking, I'm going to have a baby! October 30th, a Baby! D and I were going to be parents! Suddenly it just felt perfect.

Back to earth, and into the student's parents visit: The grief was all around me, and i stayed very subdued, but that love in my heart for the baby was just swelling and I was struggling with wanting to get a hold of D as soon as possible. During the memorial, I saw D walking home from work and so I told my two co-workers that I needed to 'talk to D'.

Of course, they had those knowing smiles and they both asked me right out, 'Are you pregnant?' I just told them I needed to talk to D and so left early.

I walked into the apartment, covered in snow. He was standing in the hallway, I told him and we both stared at each other and hugged. We sat on the couch for quite a while, and we'd both sometimes laugh, express a worry, hold hands, touch, and just be together as we let it sink in.

That night, we went to Target and looked at baby things and I think that helped put it into perspective. We held hands as we looked at outfits, cribs, nooks, blankies, etc.

That night, we called family.

My brother and his wife: I called them Uncle and Aunt
My Mom: Told her that the coupons she had would be needed in 8 months (my brother gave her pampers coupons to give to whoever needed them
Ds Mom and Dad: Asked them if they were really done witht he rocker for our future kids
AspenE: told her that I was feeling nautious a lot and got a lot of, ahh huh's

Today, I told the staff here at BSU. They are happy for me. LL and N brought Baby Ruths and baby Mt Dew cans and Motts for Totts. Of course they knew, they could tell I was smiling ear to ear while trying to lie and say nothing was going on. hehe

Baby on Board!

So, Aspen requested that I begin writing down daily tidbits of the pregnancy. So, I will regroup on this blog and hopefully keep it going with funny, gross and interesting posts.