Monday, March 31, 2003

Birthday Party
My family celebrated me and my moms birthday yesterday. We set up the grill and all the lawn furniture on the patio, started up a fire in the chimnea (roasted lots of marshmallows and made smores) and had hamburgers and baked beans. After all that, we goofed off on the four wheeler all over the yard and then had cake. I was stuffed by the time I got home.

Wiki taking time(y)
I need to put my blog second to my wiki project - so my posts may be a bit shorter for a while. I only have 6 weeks left to get all my projects done, so I need to make my priorities in the right direction - graduation.

Future home
Aspen and I walked over to Oak Hall and checked out my floor. It seems half the floor on one side past my future door is women and the other is men. The room isn't carpeted and the desk has the sides that makes the room smaller - but it will be better for my TV and computer to sit there if I need to with extra desk space. I do face the lake and some trees - I'm happy about that. I'm very excited about the whole thing.

Saturday, March 29, 2003

The loss of a good friend

Alphie, our betta fish, passed away last night. It was sad to see him die from old age, but he was an old fishy and was one of the best fish I ever had the privelege of knowing. He would wiggle his hiney and dance for you, attack his food and flirt with my moms gold fish. He was cool.

Wednesday, March 26, 2003

Happy Birthday Mom!

She looked wonderful - she always has such beautiful skin. She is also the most vibrant woman I know, and I hope someday I can be anything like her. She has a lot more patience than I do!

A new appreciation for old english

It always amazes me how much I love the Old English literature and their customs. I want to know it, I want to see it in my mind, as clearly as I can my own times. I even feel remarkably at home when I write stories about the middle ages, it's as if I'm going home and am happier in that sort of mindset. Maybe it is the ideal of chivalry and the strict rules that seemed to control every aspect of your life. It's not that I want to be a part of that, but to witness the restrictions and the way people may have gotten out of certain laws and/or didn't. Hmmm, I could make a political joke right about here, but I think that's a given.

Happiness is...

...finding the right template that will make the website you have been working on for weeks look the best!
...going home for a few hours to visit your mom.
...feeling as if you accomplished something when you witness all your hard work start coming together.
...figuring out how to use the website for interlibrary loans!

Monday, March 24, 2003

Advanced Fiction

I actually volunteered to read for Wednesday. Nobody would volunteer and the class was so quiet and Weaver was looking back and forth for anyone to say they would. I guess that's the best way to slowly break ya down until you give in. It's been a while since I read anyting, anyway.

Also, I have a start on the story I have always wanted to write! I'm so excited now - hoping I can get it all onto paper without giving too much away on what allt he plot twists are. I plan on reading them the feast chapter, where we get to see the Middle English bragging that usually went on.

Renee read us a few 100 word stories - we were all blown away. I loved them and I think she should either make a website of them or a blog - or something. People need to see the value of those stories.

Tanning
I think it's definitely time for me to take a day off from taning. I've got a slight burn and I'm going to let it die down before I go back. Today, I walked from the dorms down to Netties Nugget Tanning - it was so windy I thought i was being pushed the whole way. It's warm-but that wind is cold. I think it's time to go buy me a kite. Maybe a Harry Potter one or Lord of The RIngs. Hmmmm...

Saturday, March 22, 2003

Saturday, tanning, clothing

I have to say it was a beautiful Saturday. I had insomnia last night and couldnt get to sleep until about 3am but I did wake up at noon today and was able to go jogging during the best time of the day. The sun was warm, the breeze was cool and it was nice and quiet on the campus and down at the lake front/park. I then jogged down to main street and ran by Netties Nugget, reminding me I wanted to start tanning.

I went back to the dorms and Aspen and I went to do errands with the windows down and our hair blowing in the wind, then she waited for me as I laid in the tanning bed for 10 minutes. I have to say, it was a little long for the first time back. My cheeks are a bit red - but the rest of me seems fine. I have another appointment at 11:15 am tomorrow morning and hope I don't have insomnia again. hehe

We watched a very interesting show today on the learning channel - What Not To Wear, it made me start thinking what kind of dumpy things I wear. I hope I'm not as bad as cases as seen on the show - I always try to wear colorful clothes and nothing too large to make me look ten times bigger than I really am. I hope Aspen would tell me, anyway!

Friday, March 21, 2003

Good Dreams, Good Movie, Flies, and Senior Project-Homework

All I have to say is - My dream last night put me into a very sunny disposition today.

Aspen and I went off to go see How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days. We laughed so hard! I have to recommend this movie - it has too much truth in it and it almost made *me* embarassed just to see her do all that to the poor guy!

Ya know - I had planned to write something about something about today and I have no idea what it was anymore, the obscure "Flies" at the top is even too obscure for me! If I remember, I'll come back and fill it in. I think I'm just losing it!

I have been working o my Senior Project today and came up with a brand new template for it. I am tweaking it out now so I can begin placing my information inside of the text cells. /bounces. I am so exctied, I need to get this working so I can feel like I have a lot more accomplished - Seeing is believing.

What else I have planned in homework is - Actually start working on my fiction. I have absolutely nothing written, it's all in my head. What good is that when I need to turn it in on Friday? I dunno. Maybe I can scan my brain with my moms scanner at home.
-I also need to work seriously on my wiki to add more text. That sucker has almost too many pages! But, I found some great resources for the main State pages that I can add information too. I'll just have to remember to cite the books I get it from.
-I also have a 10-13 page paper in my Women in Middle Ages class. This is due on our last day - final day - but i'd like to get it finished way before then. I'm planning on writing about Anchoress' in the Middle Ages. They were fascinating!

Thursday, March 20, 2003

English Major Outbreak

On Seeing the Elgin Marbles
My spirit is too weak-mortality
Weighs heavily on me like unwilling sleep,
And each imagined pinnacle and steep
Of godlike hardship tells me I must die
Like a sick eagle looking at the sky.
Yet 'tis a gentle luxury to weep
That I have not the cloudy winds to keep
Fresh for the opening of the morning's eye.
Such dim-concieved glories of the brain
Bring round the heart an undescribable feud;
So do these wonders a most dizzy pain,
That mingles Grecian grandeur with the rude
Wasting of old time-with a billowy main-
A sun-a shadow of magnitude.

-John Keats

Wednesday, March 19, 2003

Sick, homework, and other thoughts
Sick? Yes.

Homework consists of going to the library to read Flannery O'Connor, writing up a draft of my English Lit 2 paper, Mess around on my wiki, try out a new design for the Dpt. of English Website, and other misc. items that I have in my "to do" box.

Politics are beyond me. My head is in the clouds or stuck in a book. It may be a horrible thing to not be too interested in what is going on in the world - but I figure it will happen no matter if I sit in front of the TV watching news all day or not. I don't need all that stress, I have enough of it on my own life. I don't think I'm the only one that thinks this way - but then everyone is an individual right? I have the right to say what is on my mind. Here is a quick blurb on what goes on in my mind.

Poem, have to read those poems for class, I need to do that paper, I wonder what being an RA will be like, will I have time to go out and have fun, what about going home? I'll miss mom. I won't have my car anymore. Gas prices will go way up, so maybe I'm lucky. My roommate still has to drive, I need to get her some money, oh money for bills. I'm pretty sure I have them all paid up. I wonder when the Visa bill is due, I get paid this Friday. I should pay it right away on friday, it would be easier if I had direct deposit. The paper for signing up for Direct deposit is in my purse, I hope I remember to bring it on friday when I pick up my check. I should have extra money from working on the website, I hope I can get that done in time. I need to find a kick-ass design. I neeed to get my Senior project website done. I want to re-do it, but I don't know if I'll have the time. I hope I can get that done in time. I wonder if I can make it bigger for my thesis next year. Oh my gosh, I'll be teaching next year. I wonder what that's going to be like. I wonder what classes I need. I need to go talk to Dr. Morgan. I hope he doesn't ask about my Senior project, I'm so behind right now. I wish I hadn't gotten sick. But, I bet if I hadn't I would still be behind, there was too much going on.

Monday, March 17, 2003

Happy Birthday to Me!


Yeap, I am now 24 years old. Officially. My 20s are going faster than they should! Slow dowwwwwwnnnn!

I'm still sick as a dog. I'm ready to grab those chopsticks from the chinese restaurant and stick em up my nose to try and get my sinuses clear. So miserable. =(
I want my Mommy! /sniffles

My Birthday has still been fun! Renee got me a cute angel necklace (I'm the lab angel! hehe) and she made us green cupcakes. She's so great. Andrea dropped off a nummy brownie on my desk and I been enjoying that huge chunk of chocolate all day so far. Also, I got a beautiful card with everyones names written in it - it's got a fairy on it. =D

I'm sorry if this is going to be a short post - I'm way too sick to get deep today. Unless its knee deep in tissues. I hope I didn't get anyone sick by going to school today =/

Saturday, March 15, 2003

Thursday, Friday, and Weekend & Monday Birthday

Sick.
Hack.
Cough.
Sneeze.
Wheeze.
Sniffle.
Sigh.
Cry.


I have one of those nasty colds where you get up around 6am because it hurts too much to lay down, your neck feels like it's about 5 times bigger than normal, your ears feel as if they are filled with fluid and you just wanna burrow into bed but can't breathe if you lay down.

I am hoping I won't be sick by Monday, I really wouldn't mind a healthy birthday. I'll be 24. Twenty-Four - seems like yesterday I was 18 and just leaving high school.

At least I've been *sneezes* able to read for my classes. Other than that I have been useless in writing or other homework.

Wednesday, March 12, 2003

Painting, Family, Spring Break, Taxes
I painted like a crazy woman the past two days. I went to my grandparents house on sunday Night, stayed the night two nights and painted from 8am until about 9pm both days. I got their bedroom and bathroom all fixed up now. I used primer in the bathroom and of course that went smoothyl. We had no primer for the bedroom and so it took at least three coats to get the pattern from past wall board to go away. Today I am sore as heck, but feel good that I got to hang out with Grandma and Grandpa.

On Sunday I was with family for my uncles birthday. We had all the family over at grandmas and apparently another aunt and uncle thought I should meet this guy from my uncles work. They brought him with, and I knew ahead of time that they thought we could become friends - or more. They are always hoping I'll go out and meet "the one". Well, my family is very open and talks about anything and everything and of course my uncle says, "...and she's got big boobs!" Oh my God, I almost died. I just about melted into the floor, hoping someone would just come shoot me. I guess most people have those family members that make it their mission to embarass the hell out of you, but geez - I could have gone without that in front of a complete stranger.

Has spring break started?

Taxes? -Gah

Friday, March 07, 2003

Paycheck? Spring Break, and Classes w/out Masses

I was pleasantly surprised when I got my paycheck. It's about 100 more than normal - so now I need to go double check to make sure they didn't do a mistake. I hate it when you get all excited with money to only realize that it won't last. Sounds like a bad joke - if my bills ever had a sense of humor.

Spring Break. Ahhhhh you can just hear the sounds of the ocean and feel the warmth of the beating sun. Or, if you're in my world, you can feel the struggling rays of sun beating down on your cheeks- the only thing exposed to the air in the negative 40 weather. You can also hear the Snow Plows in the distance, the constant swirling of the large brush. whoosh whoosh psssshhhhhhhh.

With Spring Break comes the student absences. Absinthe makes the heart grow stronger? Maybe, but absence in a class because you can get away with it is mandatory freshman day. It seems only the few of us who want to graduate this May come to class. Ah well, at least I have a head start in the quiz department.

I got hugged yesterday! I've been getting congratulated by the English Professors about being accepted as a Graduate TA. It's like a dream, I will actually have "office hours" and students...and papers to grade. Sorry if I over-chat about this sort of stuff - It's still sinking in.

Thursday, March 06, 2003

College Life Part II, Stress, N64 Bond

I got the letter today. I was accepted as an R.A.! I got assigned Oak 2nd floor A wing. Apparently a floor with double rooms as singles and mostly older students. Quiet? Maybe. I'm so very excited about next year. I'll have a new job as an RA, meet new people, I'll be teaching, and going on with my Masters. I can't believe all this is going to happen. School isn't never-ending!!! Their just sagas. On May 16th this year, I should be done with Saga 2, the attack of the graduate planes, the third and most recent episode can be called Search for Aya : The first teaching years.

Stress has been giving me very blood shot eyes and those fun (sarcasm impending....) sick headaches. Usually feels like somedody is shoving their thumb against the back of my neck 24 hours a day.

I and my roommate played a bit'o James Bond on my N64. We love to use that as a stress release, and I have to say, I got my ass handed to me. Either I started to suck at the game now, or shes gotten better, or she has more stress than me. I'm thinkin ice cream is more of my stress release. I have to say Wallys (The food place for full time students who live on campus) has had some GREAT ice cream. They actually had a vanilla ice cream with little chunks of peanutbutter chocolate cups and large chunks of some melty chocolate. mmmmm....mmmmmm.

Wednesday, March 05, 2003

Food Politics, RA nervousness, Mid-Terms, little time!

Food politics = SNARF

Now I have to go and be nervous again to see if I got accepted or not for RA. I was already planning on how to get my car back and the privacy to be had at home again.

My English Lit2 Midterm wasn't so bad today. I spent all yesterday and last night working on memorizing all the poems to go with the Romantic Poets. Ho boy did that fry my brain. But, it did it's job and I was able to identify all the authors I needed to. WHOOT. I also did the Women in Middle Ages midterm last night and that was a hoot. We were able to use our books and notes, but it was a long test. I was tired out after that.

Tonight I need to study for American Lit2, help with the Roommate Game tonight at 8:30pm - late. I have an assignment for Fiction due this friday, I haven't even touched my Wiki for this week or my Senior Project. Hopefully during Spring Break I can catch up, but I may be too busy. Hopefully mom will drop me off at the library for a time.

Tuesday, March 04, 2003

1 Midterm down
2 to go

I am studious.
I can do eet.
Essays are my friends.
Essays are good.
Brain "...errrrk....skreeeck...sploosh...."
Bing.

Monday, March 03, 2003

Surprises, fortune cookie, graduation, writing

I stopped to talk to my Res. Hall Director downstairs and he said that there was a chance that I may be able to get the Resident Assistant position if I didn't take the pay but got the free room and board. So, he said he would look for my application down at the Res Life office and see if I can get back in the running. I still have to see if they would accept me anyway. So, here goes the waiting. I'm excited, Aspen and I are both supposed to know by Wednesday. Although, if they can't find my application I am sure I'll be told right away. Ah well, life will go on if I don't get it.

My fortune cookie said "Your friends respect you for your honesty and openness." Honestly, sometimes I'm too open about some things! LOL My poor roommate has to suffer through my harangues of openniness. (New Word! WOOT, I win.)

Graduation is sneaking up on me. I have already peeked at the rings that you can buy. I don't wear my highschool ring - what makes me think I need a $$$$$ College ring $$$$$? Besides the coolness of it? It's only going to cost me about $30 for the cap/gown/tassle and that's not too bad. My grad plans have been totally accepted. I am getting a BA English degree with a 2nd major of BFA Writing. Not bad for 5 years huh? Sure I graduated high school in '97, but I did take about a year off if you add up the times I left UNT and came to Minn.

I have the worst ache to write lately. The problem was trying to get started. I have that Peaceweaver story in my head and I know I am going to write this story, but I had to figure out in what tense and what point of view. I have figured out I will stick with the girl's point of view and I am definitely toning down the fantastical elements. Maybe make it more life-like. More to come on that as I get going. I have a start and we'll see what Weaver makes of it.