We regret to inform you...

What a devestating phrase to those of us who were depending on this opportunity in order to achieve that "ultimate goal" (as mentioned in the description of my blog). Is my goal gone? no... just on hiatus. I can wait and see what may happen with the other application letters, but I plan on taking control of my life and not waiting another second to see if someone deems me worthy. I know I can do whatever is put before me, and if this includes having me work for a few years and later getting my P.h.d., so be it. Time to do some serious interviewing - I refuse to go to college for 9 years and end up working in retail.

But, the agony of defeat is so sour - I had to go and read that darn email right before work. Ah well - I seem to be taking it pretty well... I've already passed the self-pity, the mourning of a dream, the anger, and now am stuck in my indignation - ohyes, the pride is still intact.

PS. this post it totaly unrelated to the one before - the anger thing.

List of life

• Get over disappointment
• Supdate Resume
• Type up a letter of interest
• Beg for 3 letters of recommendtions
• Type up a statement of my teaching philosophy.... (any help on this would be appreciated)
• Find my transcripts left over from Phd apps
• Print out my Vita
• Talk to Susan about options
• Look for summer job
• begin looking for apartments - preferably w/pets allowed - need my Bear
  
• Finish thesis this month
• Finish my paperwork
• write paper for DE (Troilus)
• Talk to Rose about comp test
• Write DE's comp test
• Celebrate completion of MC's comp - yay!
• Stop blogging and do this stuff