My I-Mood

I just changed my imood - from "loved" to "deflated". I had changed it to "love" on March 14, 2005 and hadn't needed to change it since. That's what D does for me. However, since I have been sitting in the library thinking through this in utter silence for 6 hours (wish I hadn't read the email before work, sigh) I have lost a lot of the puff and been going up and down a lot.

I feel overwhelmed. Aspen threw a rope towards me, that helped some - and D was trying to help me in the 3 seconds I had before I had to leave for work - but its still all me - something *I* have to do and its going to be difficult. But I am willing to bet it will be exciting and that imood is going to be changed as soon as I figure things out.

The one thing that could come from this is that I may not have to live 4+ hours away from those I love. I would have been torn and dying inside and I know it. It may have been a good experience and it definitely would have helped me in my job-goals. But, teaching college english is what I want to do - why should I wait another 4 years, maybe it IS high-time to start teaching again and get in there.

Perhaps there is something to "Beware the Ides of March!"