Dreams, fish, and classes
Dreamt of my dad last night, I haven't done that for years. He was alive and well, cooking up some barbeque out in the front. In my dream I wanted to run up to him for a giant hug and to talk to him, but in the dream I kept telling myself, "why? He isn't going anywhere." When I woke up I felt a horrible loss, yet felt happy that I had the chance to be near him again. It is honestly hard sometimes to try and envision him again, but in the dream it wasn't. I could see his face, see his grumpy veneer he usually had when he was thinking and smell that spicy cologne he'd wear.

My new fish I just bought seems to be dying just like the others. I swear I cannot be a mother. Every time I have a plant or fish, they eventually die. I do anything and everything to keep them healthy, and POOF, there it goes. I’m scarred for life if this fish dies on me. Merry and Pippin both died over Christmas break, and if Sam does now, I’ll just have to give up.

Class has been great. I am terribly excited about all of my classes and can’t wait to dig right into all the projects and writing. I am hoping I can polish Chloe Pinglehoff’s story and maybe delve into the Peaceweaver story a bit more. I am wondering if Dr. Weaver appreciates my kind of fantasy writing though. Will he say it is too fanciful and childish? Are these just my worries? Bah, stupid brain, shut up. I’m going to write what I know and will just have to ignore my second voice that puts it down. The first scene I would like to write is a battle scene at the beginning. Maybe I should just write it and try to polish it up enough to where I won’t be nervous. I think it is only the process of planning my stories that gets the better of me.

Rael Again...
* New-Space Age hair-do
* White shiny clothing
* Bad accent
* Plans for an embassy for the aliens to land in - the shape of the crop circles!
* Apparently don't think sex is worth the trouble anymore - Hey, you want a CLONE?
* Probably has one of those yappy little poodles that he calls "Feefee" and treats better than his followers
* Broke his head on that volcanoe in France - seeing all sorts of crazy things that he hasn't mentioned yet
** like his vision of Michael Jackson actually being human
** The sun is made of cheese, and the MOON is made of ricotta
** The aliens probed him, and that's why he wears the big flowy white robe, to hide the blow-up donut.
* Like to play Space Invaders