Saturday, August 20, 2005

Let sleeping fish lie

All moved into the dorms. Wonderful room and so good to be back. Enjoying the time with D again. As for the comments on previous post - I tried to explain a bit more of what I meant. Hopefully not treading on anyone. I do agree at times with both sides - which is normal for me - listen to everyone else and slowly come to my own decision.

Right now - I feel like writing. But why am I writing in my blog and not being creative and writing a story? Why do I still sit here when my back is hurting and no matter how many stretching my shoulders back's - I can't seem to crack the spot that feels stuck. Sitting here in the dim light, black tanktop and shorts, slightly chilly from my open window - but the curtains are closed because I live right across from maple hall now and people could see into my room.

Now, If the window bothers me that much and yet I am still blogging - what's the difference? The people reading my blog can see more of the real me than someone accidentally glancing in my window and seeing me combing my hair. And yet, I sit here writing and yet my curtains are cutting me off from the outside.

I suppose I do use a curtain in my mind - cutting people off from certain parts of my day. Like - I probably wouldn't come onto my blog everytime I got a sliver. I probably wouldn't be able to type if I had one anyway!

Why can't I just walk away from the blog? I use it - oh yes. I use it as my homepage and look at my favorite sites. I make to do lists that I don't look at again. I check the comments for that rare hope that someone may have left me one - and when I get one, I am like a kid with a brand new dollar bill.

Hmm someone is revving their engines and screeching their tires outside. Someones bored!!

Well, I feel like I am blogged out for now. Time for bed. Hope you all enjoy the last few days of Holiday!

PS - anyone want me to give a heads up when I drop French? Can't remember who. I need to take Latin - not french - go figure hehehe

1 comment:

Berne said...

Once you've started blogging, it is hard to walk away completely. For me, I had to get away from the compulsion to do it every day...now I blog when I want, sometimes every day, sometimes once a week.

If you're tired, take a break. Bloggers announce breaks to readers for weeks, even months at a time. But leave the blog intact...it will be waiting for you whenever you choose to come back.