I am an English Major. I will not feel threatened by the patriarchal emphasis in early literature. I will bite my tongue and not rave about what a chauvinistic pig so many of those men were. How Freud was among them, penis envy my ass! Naturally!? HAH!

Well, as you can see, I am getting farther and farther into my lit crit and theory book, and I have a good laugh every time I hear another one of those crackpot ideas of how women are nothing and how men are everything. The only thing I can think of is that the afterlife must be quite a shock for them, ‘eh? ;-)

Aspen locked me out of the room again, and with NO SHOES! I was playing the Nintendo in the living room, had left my keys in the bedroom along with my shoes. Aspen runs off to class and there I was, no shoes, no keys, nothing. Can’t go to work without the key to open the door, no shoes to even walk over there. I had to go beg for the extra key to get into the room, and run up and down the stairs in a panic so I wouldn’t be too much of a problem. ARGH, what a day. But, I did get most of my homework done, just not all of the reading. I was getting too disgusted with the “Mans world” view.

Read the last of A Canticle for Leibowitz, very very very disturbing story. I'll never live down the story of how the abbot euthanized his cat.. or rather the attempt to.

I went to a BSU Football game today, or actually yesterday... and we won, but it was a LOT of fun. I'm actually getting a hang of it and can't wait until next weekend for Homecoming =D

I'm so very tired, and tired of living in the dorms. It's so hard to get to sleep when there are people running around drunk and music banging against the walls, floor and ceiling. GAH, what I'd give for some silence sometimes.

Krikey! I didn't post yesterday, I feel so ashamed!

Well, sorta.

Was quite a busy day, went to all my classes, went to work then had the Hall Council meetings. Not bad for our first meeting and I think this will be a lot of fun!

We discussed the Halloween haunted house that we will be running, I can't wait. I already have a great idea for a room, it'll be creepy to me, so hopefully others will feel disturbed too :-)

I have to recommend a song I found a few months ago, its Portishead and Massive Attack - Teardrops. This song is wonderful! I ran into it when I found this hilarious site where these kids took the premise of Romeo and Juliet, then converted it into chat-room lingo and made a flash about it. I'll try to post the link if I find it.
Romeo and Juliet for the L33t

Early bed-times and the dorms are a hard mix.Yes, I know this is the time to go party and mingle with people my own age, but when do *I* have the time for this? I'll tell you when, when my homework is done! It took me all day today to do all the homework due for tomorrow. I had one and a half hours during work where I sat back and didn't think of my homework, played on the Wiki and helped students work on their webpages.

Ayleens Wiki Page

Also, for those college guys out there who think calling girls rooms at 2am is funny, $^@#&^$ you! I was perfectly oblivious and snug before you called. Grrrrrr!

Shame on me!
I almost forgot to write in my blog! ehehe

I'm at work until 9pm tonight, and then most likely I will be watching the new Buffy premiere when I get home! OH JOY! I would have probably passed out without blogging tonight, and that's just not right.

Did my Sir Gaiwan and The Green Knight presentation today, I was horrible! Maybe not as bad as what I used to be like, but pretty bad. The worse part was that I was last for the day and all the time I had left was 3 minutes. Well, thats NOT a good way to start. So there I am, making everybody stay after class, as they are holding their backpacks in their hot little hands. I did my best, telling them all I knew about the story and why I felt it was a fantasy, or rather, a grandmother fantasy story.

Damn, I love old english literature. All I can think of is where I can buy the books and when I could read them all. I need to make some time for myself so I can read and read and read some more!

There were two great writing assignments in my fiction writing class today. Professor Cobb wrote a few beginning sentences on the chalkboard, and the one I picked out was, "We shouldn't have to live like this." My mind went totally berserk! Now I want to just write what I was coming up with! Maybe I should just let myself go, but it is so hard to do that when I have so many other things begging for attention. I don't know when I'm going to have any free-time, and then my Mom is also looking for me to come visit her off and on. ARGH! The day should have an extra hour or two so I can just sit back and relax. Maybe I should try and organize my time better. Somebody be my secretary!

Wanted: Secretary for a harried 23 year old student. Must be able to speed-read, type 1000000wpm, feed me when I don't have time to eat, help me study, record all my shows for me, tell me when I can do "me" time and go to class for me and then give me the rush summary. Please call or leave a message at the Writing Center. Will pay with peanuts, since thats about all I have.

I swear we have the oddest floor on all of campus. There is a neighbor of ours that either smokes cigars or the smell of cigarettes is mingling with the smell of her perfume. Whatever the cause of it is, is quite strong. Oh, and not to mention the sound of her MSN going off every five minutes! Good lord girl, ever hear of a volume control?!

Have two meetings tonight after work. Aspen and I are meeting with the other Hall Council members to discuss what we will be doing this year. I guess as secretary slash treasurer, I should bring along a folder for the minutes. Hope I'm good enough for that job. The other meeting involves going to our hallway and meeting with the floor to discuss odds and ends and maybe a shirt design.

Have you ever tried reading Literary criticism and theory? Holy Schiznits! I can barely understand a word that is written, and then if I do understand, I wholeheartedly disagree with their statements. I have read enough where I am happy in saying that critics just like to talk and will argue anything and everything. Is there no such thing as talking a good book to death? Somewhat like beating a dead horse, but without the flies.

Well, since me and God kept performing phone tag, I went to Church this morning and called him direct. He was very busy through the throng and I am pretty sure we made eye contact before He was swamped under a blanket of followers that stole His attention away. Ah well, someday I will be able to get Him alone and see what He has been up to these days.

Eventually I made it home to get my clothes washed, my moms poor washer has seen better days, before me and my brother started coming home to wash clothes.

I think tonight I will either make cookies, banana bread or apple pie...I'll have to flip a coin to see. Oh, I also could make popovers...which reminds me I need to give Janelle a call tomorrow and make sure she is still around.

I notice that when you know people, you know exactly how they are going to react when you are home. Like some people will jump up and greet you and talk, or others will be in a dark room, watching tv or reading with a sad expression on their face and not care either way if you are there or not. It's not as if I expect a huge welcoming, but maybe a smile wouldn't hurt. Maybe I just smile too much and expect too much from others. /shrugs

Most of the homework is done, got some posters up for our hall and am now just goofing off before my mom shows up to bring us to the bar. Yes, that may sound a bit odd, but the whole family is off to a bar tonight to go support my uncle who is playing solo there. I believe it will be fun, even after being drenched in the smell of smoke, rubbing your red eyes against the smoke and eventually hacking up a lung because of the smoke. I doubt they would ever consider a smoker free bar, but until they do, I don't enjoy them at all since I feel like I am fighting for my life, or at least for my lungs.

Somebody was passed out in our hall last night. About 3am I went out of my room to head for the bathroom and there was a man sprawled on the floor, his face covered up by his arm. Feeling odd about going to the bathroom with some unkown wierdo outside was a challenge in itself as I locked the doors behind me and then tried to go back to sleep. I honestly did not have the courage to go face down some drunken man in my pajamas at 3am when everyone else is either in a drunken sleep or gone for the weekend. By the time I got up around 6am and peeked outside again, he was gone. I'd like to thank my Mom and my Dad for never introducing drinking into our family and helping me stay away from it, I feel I am much better off without.

Made it to Hall Council today, I am now the Secretary/Treasurer of Birch/Linden Hall. YAAAY Hopefully we can get together and work at getting a kitchen sink for our floor, the one we have now is actually an utility sink that does nothing except get your knees wet.

Oh, God called me back today, but I was out at Ground Round...

Bought my first sweater of the year, a blue one with a turtle-neck. I always try to envision a poor turtle wearing one of these sweaters, and then wonder at what size a Giant Tortoise would wear. XXXXXXXXXXXL? Is there such a thing? Maybe they would like that better than a shell, since it is so much softer. I wonder if its comfy inside their shells, I suppose if you lived past a hundred, you'd get used to all sorts of inconveniences.

Tried to talk to God today, seemed he wasn't home and I ended up just leaving another message.

I hover about 5 feet from my desk in a fluffy pink bed with a down comforter and tons of pillows, yet the teacher notices nothing and goes on about Aristotle and his thoughts on literature. 2pm is the time when my brain likes to shut down and take a fiver, not think about ancient writers, or how I should phrase the next question or where I should go eat lunch or when I should have read this or that.

I definitely did NOT eat milk today. If I ever find out exactly what it was that guy was having for breakfast, I may never get any sleep, having nightmares of coagulated milk chunks on a plate. *-.Shiver.-*

Moved into the dorms a couple weeks ago. We were able to grab up two double as singles right next to eachother. Now, we have a livingroom and a bedroom.

I get to work tonight, most likely I will end up writing up my Lit. Crit. and Thoery notes. I am hoping I don't have a nervous breakdown soon, I been working non-stop for so long. There is a lot of reading involved in my classes this year. Oh yes, there is some writing, and as it so happens, I need to write a story tonight to hand in tomorrow. This one should prove to be a fun one, all about dragons and what we know about them. I had a lot of help from Jeremy with the ideas, he's very good at finding funny things to say about different things.

I been trying to read A Canticile of Liebowitz and I knew it was to be read within a couple more weeks, well apprently some other students aren't going out and buying the damn book and here I am wracking my brains out and she says, "Oh I suppose we could switch another book with this one." That means I need to put down the Canticile and begin with a different one. WHEEEE COllege life, gotta love it.

Right now, if I had any wish in the world, I would be in a health club being mud-packed and pampered and cleansed. I feel like I need that kind of a break. And, oh yes! A back rub... or a whole god-damned body massage. That would be heaven.