Fragmenting my thoughts
1) Or have they been fragmented all this time? My friends say that I have a mind that is opposite of a steel trap - I go from one subject to another. Perhaps a mild form of Adult ADD - but I think its the caffienated drinks - Coffee, Cappucinos, Mountain Dew, and mellow Yellow. I *have* been trying to cut down on these - but if I don't have any I will fall asleep by 1pm.

1.5) I vividly remember in one of my creative writing classes form years ago that memory should be seen as a large storehouse of information. What you have is a dog - name him whatever you would like - and he is there to fetch your information for you. Well, some people may have overactive dogs, some dogs may be deaf or just plain lazy. I believe my fetching dog chases his tail more often than my information.

1.53) Cats wouldn't be much better I suppose.

2) What am I going to do with myself for the next month and a half? I have no classes - I have perhaps the one livingroom to redecorate downstairs and then I guess Holly wants me to help redo her bedroom in town. She is getting older and needs her own life away from her younger syblings.

3) I have to remind myself to watch Monk this Friday - I have a fascination with strange people apparently. Lets list off those favorite actors of mine:
Bruce Willis
Vin Diesel
Tony Shaloub - Monk guy
Peter Falk - Columbo guy (If I could meet him in person I would cry - he is an old favorite of mine and I'd want to adopt him as part of the family)

3.5) There I go with lists again - can't help it.

4) Some people say I am anal - which is an interesting way to describe someone who likes things listed and in order - which apparently I get from my Dad. As I was redecorating my moms guest/computer room I ran into folders he had filed before he passed away and they list off every single thing my mom and he bought in the last 10 years or so. And some of this stuff we don;t have anymore. So, I do have that project yet, to go through and start organizing what files we need or don't need. He even made a 3-ring binder named "Tools List" and listed and categorized with ID numbers all the tools he had in the garage.

4.5) Although, in his line of work he did have to take his stuff with him back and forth (model maker) - so he probably used it for something. It is heartbreaking to get rid of the things he had worked so hard on. I keep telling mom to just keep the main important things and then let the other things go (its been 5 years) and make the space livable by giving her more room.

Updated Goals
*Finish Masters this year
*Write a {{brilliant}} thesis on the interwoven stories in Beowulf
*Graduate
*Study Abroad (See Post Below)
*Teach Abroad
*Live Abroad
*Learn more German and then take on French
*Get a great start on Old English
*perhaps learn Latin
*Get my PHD before I turn 30

Insert "find love, have a family and live happily ever after" somewhere in there

After all that - then I guess I will come up with more goals - much like
*Get a History Degree
*Bring my mom to Egypt
*Publish a few books
*Write fairy tales
*Live until I am 99 or so

New beginnings

I have been talking to the professors about my dream of going overseas to get my PHD. I convince myself daily that there will be some way to get over there to do what I want with the Old English Literature and to translate/rewrite many of the works that I think others would appreciate if given a chance. The children today are not given the training in classics enough and the literature will begin to be forgotten except by dusty ibrarians - that shouldn't be true. Everyone should know what Lais are, who beowulf was or wasn't, who wrote Morte d' Arthur, or what Hamlet meant when he said, "Get thee to a nunnery!"

Which reminds me of the Italy trip in Spring break - I think I need to save my money so I *can* go overseas!

Leysin American School in Switzerland
CEA
ISA

Another class under my belt
and I am sad to see it over. I am not wholly finished yet, as I still have to write the paper for it.

Here I am sitting at my moms computer, Celebrity Poker is on in the background and I am trying my best to add more items for the conference I am interning at next week.

Meaghan called and she will be coming in on Saturday and staying the week in here. She is also an intern at the Writers Conference. She is a great friend and was a wonderful resident to have on my floor last year. We'll all three (me, Aspen and Meaghan) have a blast this next week!

I did finish up my moms office - it is now a multifunctional room. She has her TV, files, 2 computers, playstation, futon/bunkbed, and mailing center all in one bedroom sized room. I feel the paint and the organizing has helped a L O T!

To remember is all good and fine
- but don't remember the bad - remember the good - don't keep grudges for a people by being as unforgiving and rehashing when it cannot be undone.

On that note - The redecorating project is well under way. I have unearthed her closet! It is a rather nice size and I took out the shelving for clothes out to install the new shelves I had cut at home Depot. I left Aspen at home and she volunteered to get started in painting the insides - a nice light sagey green. Hard to explain. I48835.
The other colors are a deep creamy white and a dark red with a dark olivish green. The large roomsize carpet is green, the drapes will have panels of cream and red. I am hoping to buy extra fabric for the bedding too.

Almost class time and I have a bannana bread to eat yet.

BeAuTiFuL DaY!

Shaking the Foundations
Actually, its just me that is shaking. Didn't have enough to eat I guess and by the end of class I was willing my tummy to not growl. I then headed back to my office for a last minute snack of warm sandwiche and I think that leaving the sanwiche on my desk for three hours wasn't a good call. I ended up just munching the meat that hadn't touched the Mayo. Bleh!

Also, I told my mom that I would call her after class so we could go shopping for paint for her study. Bah, no answers. Called home four times until I rustled Aspen out of the pool so she could tell me they weren't there. I also had tried my moms cell phone numerous times and that wasn't answered and it seems Aspen had to once again get out of the pool to go upstairs and answer it for me. Grrrr... technology is good mom - and even when she knew i was going to call :-P

So, to sit here a bit longer and meet her there or go ahead and go home. /sigh. I didn't want to go home again to that room. I am so sick of sharing a room with two desks, two computers, a huge armoire, an even more huge bed that is in actuality a futon with a bunk, my clothes haphazardly tossed into three bags above and a closet so full that the doors cannot be fully opened or closed on account of the overthrow of order into chaos.

I have beautiful drawings and dreams for that room. And I will fix it - oh yes - it will be done. When I get the urge to redecorate, watch out and watch your wallet!! hehe I want to go in there, toss everything out, paint the heck out of it, put up curtains, tear things down, organize, and make it into a guest bedroom/study where she can relax and not be lost in the clutter. {{rubs hands together in glee}}

I should have gotten a second major - something in interior design. I love it. It is more than just a hobby - it is a huge part of me that just wants to explode from the books and go crazy with all the ideas in my head.

Does this passion surpass English? Even Old English? No... it's just different.

It's Miller Time!
Funny story - can't write it here. :-) It doesn't involve alcohol, just a saying.

Busy - if you have been e-mailing me, I am so sorry. I am actually scared to even open up my e-mail account and see how many I have. If you are one of those e-mailers, I will try to get in there tomorrow before class.

Class - yes, I have class right now. Another two weeks of it in fact. But, who can complain about a class about The Lord of the Rings and Beowulf.

uops, gotta go again - im late, im late, im late for a date! As they say.